I remember running into a friend if mine that I hadn’t seen in many years. He and I sat and caught up, told stories, shared some laughs, and went on our ways. It occurred to me later that I had no way of getting back in touch with this fellow, and it really kind of stung. I really liked this him, but I knew that there was a chance that I’d never see him again.
Over the years, I’d wondered about him, and many others that I’ve known who now, for all intents and purposes exist only in my memories. They could all be very happy right now, with lots of money, and spare time, and loved ones. They could all be having the times of their lives, and I hope that’s the case, but the sad reality is that they could also be dead. The fact that these people who once touched my lives may not be touching lives at all anymore, and I don’t even know, really sort of bothers me! Perhaps it irrational, no one can keep in touch with everyone, of course.
I was recently goofing around looking for cool blogspot names, trying different URLs to see what came up, and almost every single one I tried was taken. The sites were generally all pretty empty except for a scrawling or two of someone just writing to be read, or a post like “testing…”. Most hadn’t been used in over ten years. I started to wonder, what happened here? Someone clearly intended to be heard, but stopped for some reason. Perhaps they went over to WordPress or some other blog site. Maybe they stopped caring about blogging… what if they died, and their wisdom was never imparted?
Even now, today, as you and I trade posts… I have come to like a great many of you, and I look forward to reading your posts… what if some day they stopped? What if my last correspondence from you was a blog entry you did for some challenge about cabbage or donkeys, with a note like “See you next time!”
I saw this website called Letters from Beyond,. You basically sign up, write some depressing “goodbye, you did a good job, I’ll always love you” stuff, and one day when you go, it’ll be shared with loved ones I think. I saw another site once that you could create emails that would be sent at a certain date after your passing to an email address of your choice. Kinda creepy, if you ask me… That would have set my healing process back something fierce, to get an email from someone who’d died.
I toyed with writing a post “from beyond the grave” to let people know I’d died, just so they wouldn’t be wondering, and scheduling it for six or eight months out… and then just changing the scheduled date every time it drew near… But I know myself well enough to know I’d forget, you’d all get a post that I’d kicked, and then I’d have to explain what happened in a follow up post… And I’d set it up again, and forget again, and you’d be wondering if it were the real deal, etc…
I’m only 31, and dying doesn’t really cross my mind a whole lot… I certainly don’t intend to do it any time soon… but just thinking about the amount of data that would suddenly be inaccessible after the fact, because I’m a maniac about not sharing my passwords, and such… Lots of people wouldn’t know what happened, and couldn’t ask people who knew because the people who knew couldn’t check my email or update my blog or something… And it’s not like I can just go ask someone “Hey, if I croak, go to this website, log in with these credentials, and update my status, would you?”
Anyway, sorry for the morbidity, but it crept into my mind while I happened to be trying to think of an “I” entry.
To lighten the mood now, here’s a clip of Bill Cosby, cause he’s hysterical.